The beginning or the end?

As a recent graduate from NTU SBS, I feel like I have a responsibility to guide my prospective or current juniors about my scientific career, though really really atomically tiny, I hope this blog helps anyone who needs it.

I am an example of a kid who did really badly in my early school years; primary and secondary school. Although my "O" levels were okay, mainly because my results were bad and my secondary school forced me to take easier subjects, that kinda changed my life, I guess? I vaguely remember how much I hated studying, failing tests with no regrets and just winging every class. Until... I felt the thrill and reaping my rewards for something I put so much effort into. That was the start and the end of my lazy days. Despite scoring well enough to get into Junior College, I chose the more "unfavourable" option of attending a polytechnic, SP DBS, which is the best decision of my life. My grades were good, not fantastic but good enough to get me to the direct entry to year 2 in NTU SBS.

That ended my student life and started my real life. "Real" as in, now, I have to put my knowledge to actual use. The very limited knowledge that I have. So minimal, it's driving me crazy. I want to do a PhD, I went to take my GRE test 2 days ago, yet, it still feels like my life is getting no where. I believe it's not something depressing, it's just the beginning of yet another part of my life's journey.